My husband and I found out we were pregnant October 7th, 2020.

My husband and I found out we were pregnant October 7th, 2020. We found out really early. I’m very regular in my cycles so I tested positive the day after my missed period. I don’t know if we both have ever felt so happy? We’ve been together for almost ten years, we met in our mid twenties and didn’t plan on having kids but recently started to have different feelings and didn’t anticipate getting pregnant so fast. I was almost 10 weeks when this past Friday while I was at work I began to lightly spot. I didn’t think much of it since that’s fairly normal and I had spotted early on. Unfortunately the spotting progressed and I noticed it every time I took a bathroom break (which was frequent). It changed from pink to red and some light brown. I got to the point that I was scared to go to the bathroom. Luckily I have a great support system at work, my management was very understanding and I left, going straight to the ER. I was admitted right away and luckily my husband was able to leave work and meet me there (covid times). Almost 6 hours later, several blood tests, doing my business in a cup, IV fluids, about 40 minutes of external and internal ultrasounds, and an exam. Our baby was pronounced gone. They unfortunately had chromosome abnormalities, stopped growth (was at 7 week growth instead of the almost 10 they should have been) and their heart stopped beating. My ER nurses and doctor were incredible, I’m so grateful for their compassion that my husband and I so desperately needed. I’ve never cried so much in my life. I feel a deep sense of emptiness, sadness and complete loss. We were planning on telling our family the exciting news on thanksgiving and unfortunately that will now not be happening. I pray this never happens again. We will try again one day but for now it’s time for healing. I will be forever thankful for our family and friends support but most of all, for me, my husband. As devastating as this is, it has strengthened our relationship. I love him so much. I’m so grateful to have him in my life and I hope that we can share our love for each other with a healthy, happy baby.