I lost my baby at 8 weeks

Hi my name is ... , i lost my baby at 8 weeks and well not only was is it physically painful but it left me feeling like a failure, like im not enough as a women . I lost my gma who raised me few months ago . So now i feel like im alone in this world. Everyone tells me that at least i wasnt more far along or that other people have it worst , but i heard my baby’s heartbeat i saw it and it still hurts like hell. This is the worst thing that has happend to me . I feel like i want to sink down in a whole . I feel like i want to be wraped in a blanket for years . I feel so alone and depressed. I feel like everyone invalids my feelings . I feel like hell . I want to cry and scream .