I am 33 years old.

I am 33 years old. I have a 13 and 10 year old and never planned to have any more children. That was until I met my boyfriend. We got pregnant and I was so happy. He has wanted nothing more in life, but to be a father. I was able to give that to him and I was finally going to have the family I never had. I found out 8 days after conception. I had implantation bleeding and I just knew I was pregnant. I should be 7 weeks pregnant. We spent all day yesterday looking up baby announcements. We were going to tell everyone on Easter. Around 5 o'clock I had pink spotting when I went to the bathroom. I went into the ER alone because my boyfriend couldn't be there which was upsetting to him because it's his baby too. They did an exam. She said the blood looked old and that they'll do an ultrasound. I was not able to see the screen which made me more upset. I was bleeding more after that. The doctor came in. HCG was low (2600) gestational sac, no baby. She said I'm probably not as far along as I thought. I knew that was a lie. I conceived on my boyfriends birthday which was the best present for him. I went home devastated and told to go back in after 3 days. I'm bleeding at this moment. Heavy. I know that it's over. Hearing my boyfriend cry was the worst part. I'm afraid to try again and do this all over.